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Monday, July 19, 2010

Gushing and Squirting

Bodies are amazing. They are so different in so many ways. Like faces, bodies are unique and different in their entirety.

Women bodies for me are delightful. Some women can bend like pretzels. Some can look at you with their eyes and make you melt with their smile. Some women are so smart and wickedly sexy, it isn't clear who is the cat and who is the mouse. Some women have voices that are magical. The list is endless.

Some women can squirt! Mmmmmmm

She doesn't just get wet but she gushes. Not only does that warm clamping vagina squeeze around a penis but then there is this sexy warm liquid that floods the shaft and the balls if gravity is in your favor. It is fantastic. It is amazing.

The ability can disappear because of things like sickness, dehydration, stress and other factors. When it returns, it is an excellent surprise like last night.

My kink does kick in to this fun. I tease about filling up a bucket tied to a chair cumming and cumming. I tease, play, touch, lick and fuck again and again for yet another and another orgasm enjoying yet another gush. Yum yum.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Life Continues Slowly

As I have done before in the recent weeks, I went off to be with kinky people. I may think that in my mind but when I step back and really consider it, my need is to be with sex positive people. It is pretty simple.

Once and a while I venture with a comment that is more sexually open with co-workers but it fizzles quickly. It makes me doubt the side of me that is like that should exist. Having close friends and a girlfriend who are open this way doesn't erase the doubt. Going off to places and meeting sex positive souls does who are openly expressive does erase it.

At first going to munches was a big help providing for this need. I got to meet people and make connections. The last munch I went to sort of fizzled, the service sucked and I was in the bar getting drinks and listening to negative comments about some woman in the munch in the back room exposing herself. The negative energy in myself about the service I and my friends were receiving and the negative energy a the bar made unbalanced things too much.

I venture out more carefully now. I talk to good people and learn from them. At some point, I go off and explore.

Emotionally things have been difficult the last couple of months. I normally have a smile on my face, engage myself in conversations with new people and enjoy learning what they know. This has not been happening of late.

My emotions have made me withdraw. I go places and enjoy the conversations that occur with me and enjoy what happens for play. The energy to engage new people and play has been missing. My thoughts has been on my friends, my families and work and how I wish things were different.

Last Night

The good news is that I have some good news. I wish it was not matched with other bad news but it is still good news. I take what I can.

It gave me an uptick in my energy. I talked to new people. I did two rope suspensions. I enjoyed being at OhioSMART.

In both scenes, the world shrank in. All I knew was the ropes, the woman in them and me. I hit a range of emotions, frustrations with my ropes, pure glee with some of the mental games I played and the realization near the end of the scene that I was floating a bit. I love rigging.

At the end of the second scene, the music was high tempo and really messing with me. I was trying to resolve the spaghetti in my ropes and recoil them at the speed of the music. It was a goofy loopy time with many false starts.

The drive back home was weird. My girlfriend had played and she was very bouncy and talkative. I had played and was goofy quiet. My mind focused on driving, listening to her and the music. I really couldn't reply to her conversation but she didn't care. It made me smile.

I am playing again. I am making plans again. I don't know when the next piece of bad news will happen. I just have my hope.

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